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FANTASY LIFE.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Do you really know...
how is the feeling...
of someone who used to stand by with you...
his/her existence was never noticed...
you took the comfortably for granted...


when one day...
they disappeared from your life for whatsoever reasons...
suddenly you feel so lost and empty...
no matter how hard you spank yourself...
they are already gone for good...


do not ask me how i feel now...
i cannot feel anything...
the worst feelings is when you unable to feel anything...
and how much i wish...
to get back to your heart...

recently I have been facing with a lot of stress...
study... working... family... and $...
people always come and go and they say:...
'aiya nothing great about it...
your problem is nothing compared to mine...'

do you know that...
mentality is not meant for comparing...
if you do not bother to ask before you start to comment...
fuck off from me...
i do not need your highly graded opinions...

there is something in my heart...
that i will never forget it for life...
i really love her...
i love her more than i love myself...
is not this called true love?

guys and gals...
tell me...
what is love?
my vision is getting blurrer...
i cannot see the path ahead of me...

i need a chance...

just one more...

---------------Leaving on Fantasy--------------- ; {11:56 AM}
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Monday, September 15, 2008

If I walk away one day...
It does not means I do not care anymore...
It only merely means...
I cannot love you anymore...

If I stop calling you...
It does not means I do not miss you anymore...
It only means...
I do not want to think of you cos' I am going bananas...

---------------Leaving on Fantasy--------------- ; {12:52 AM}
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this is my new blog...
same address...
brand new content = no more previous posts left...
My friend, My brother, My family, and you...
who is reading this post...
I have something to say...
I am drifting away...
It was so much that I wanted to stay...

I bite on my fingers...
and tolerate on whatever shit that happened...
this is not only abstrained to love...
to my work...
studies...
friendships...
kinship...
I have been on sleepless night recently...
even if I managed to doze of...
It only last a few hours...
I get more tired after that...

To my bro... Shah...
Forgive her bah...
she is already no more there for you...
no matter how much you cry...
how many times you punch into the wall of your heart...
you know yourself...
love is always the most miracle thing in this world...
always extreme opposite of things it is capable to accomplish...
it can bring happiness and sadness...
It can bring hope and disappointment...
It can bring laughter and weeps...

I know it is hard to tell you know to think...
but really you have to tell yourself...
even you die now on the spot...
your parents cares...
your brother cares...
your sister cares...
your friends care...
but not she...
sorry for that...

To you...
who is always the special one in my heart....
I want to tell you...
ever since I tried so hard...
to get back into your heart...
tons of hardship...
and criticism has been received non-stop...
but it is alright...
if you cannot accept me...
just treat as I paying you back...
for the past which I did badly to you...
If you are testing me...
I will accept any kind of tormentation from you...
I am a man...
who swear to stand on no matter what happened...

sometimes...
things are not meant for words...
it is how much you feel...
and whether you want to pass it or fail it...
I have no comments about your gauge of passing...
but I trying hard...
I will not utter this in front of you...
but I will still care...
because my feelings for you...
will always be here...
the feelings...
will only gone...
when my soul leaves my body...

---------------Leaving on Fantasy--------------- ; {12:18 AM}
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Thursday, September 11, 2008

testing

---------------Leaving on Fantasy--------------- ; {3:32 PM}
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Fantasy guy

This blog is specially dedicated to all of you who are reading
Remember life is short, pray and play hard

Ticks of his life

Recently on intensive care unit of relationship recovery
Looking for a place which has no agony and disappointment
I am still looking, maybe I will never find it?

Crosses in his life

Please treasure everyone as you are seeing them for the last time in life
Do not take for granted... Do not regret


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