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FANTASY LIFE.
Friday, November 28, 2008
When she walks away from you mad===[ Follow her]
When she stare's at your lips===[ Kiss her ]
When she pushes you or hit's you===[ Grab her and don’t let go ]
When she start's cursing at you===[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]
When she's quiet===[ Ask her what’s wrong]
When she ignore's you===[ Give her your attention ]
When she pulls away==[ Pull her back ]
When you see her at her worst===[ Tell her she's beautiful ]
When you see her start crying==[Just hold her and don’t say a word ]
When you see her walking==[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]
When she's scared===[ Protect her ]
When she lay's her head on your shoulder===[ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]
When she steal's your favorite sweatshirt==[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she tease's you===[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]
When she doesn’t answer for a long time===[ reassure her that everything is okay ]
When she looks at you with doubt==[ Back yourself up with the TRUTH]
When she say's that she like's you==[ she really does more than you could understand ]
When she grab's at your hands===[ Hold her's and play with her fingers ]
When she bump's into you===[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]
When she tells you a secret===[ keep it safe and untold ]
When she looks at you in your eyes===[ don’t look away until she does ]
When she misses you===[ She's hurting inside]
When you break her heart===[ the pain NEVER really goes away ]
When she says its over===[ she STILL wants you to be hers ]
When she repost this bulletin===[ she wants you to read it ]
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- Tease her and let her tease you back
-Stay up all night with her when she's sick
- Let her wear your clothes.
- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
- Kiss her in the pouring rain
- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; "Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"
---------------Leaving on Fantasy--------------- ; {3:02 PM}
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whatever you are thinking... or feeling... please keep it to yourself and do not show off in front of others... if you do not wish to be treated the way you are treating others now... please make sure you put yourself in others' shoe...
the 2nd day i watch movie whole day in office now... so nice boss never come for today as well... looking forward for tomorrow... going for a short trip... gonna drive all the way up to KL with my her... lol... paiseh wor... I have only 2 days to spare...
go back my movie now... maybe will come back later...
---------------Leaving on Fantasy--------------- ; {9:14 AM}
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Always believe in the law of equivalent... If you gain something, at the same time you will lose something in return, whether you are aware of it...
Not trying to curse anyone... but I just feel like telling you all who are reading my blog... you might be happy right now... but always remember that your happiness might sourced from others' upset and emptiness... you might not remember the person or item which you care so much for... but somehow trust me... people tend to forget...
To struggle on my life now... economic is really getting worse... and there is no a single sign of recovery... wallet super tight now... just have to be more tactful in spending... overspent over the last few months... enough to cover a simple labourer's one year salary...
getting sleepy... eyelids getting heavier... here I stop... oyasuminasai...
---------------Leaving on Fantasy--------------- ; {12:56 AM}
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Monday, November 24, 2008
So fast... this year is approaching into the last month soon... Look back on the past months... I have not made much improvements wor... Still need to change my attitude... "gan qing yong shi"... Need to overcome this major problem...
Feel so suffocating staying in Singapore... tried out apply for job admist of glocal economic crisis... never thought that I got 3 offers wor... All overseas... lol... I think it is a clear sign for me to move on... and leave Singapore bah... 3 years has passed and I have already fulfilled my tuition grant bond...
Out of all these offers... the locations are ShangHai, Australia (Brisbane), and New Zealand... hope so much can go ShangHai... it is one of the busiest city in the world... the living standard there is high also lol... got offered twice of my current salary if I got there... but still have to consider... I will need to adapt to a totally new environment...
I just want to leave this place... leave all my regrets and sadness behind... never look back...
---------------Leaving on Fantasy--------------- ; {12:52 PM}
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Thursday, November 20, 2008
有些人，一旦错过就不在!
有些人，一旦错过就不在!!
女孩说我爱你。男孩笑了。
女孩又说我真的爱你。男孩还是笑。
女孩说你根本不爱我。男孩沉默了。女孩哭着离开了。跑的很远很远。
男孩站在原地，怔怔地，他自言自语到，其实我也爱你，只是不知道怎么爱你。
女孩倒在秋千上，男孩用力地推啊推啊。
男孩篮球比赛，女孩叫破了嗓子，第二天依然出现在男孩面前说昨天你真逊。
女孩说我要最漂亮的那朵，男孩奋不顾身地爬上树，然后遍体鳞伤地对女孩说给你。
男孩的头上出现了一点点的红色，女孩紧张半天却还说着我才不在乎。
女孩说我累了，男孩蹲下身子，说上来吧，我背你。
男孩一次成绩超过了女孩，女孩心底高兴依然说下不为例。
女孩第一次学滑板，摔地体无完肤，男孩一边骂着小傻瓜，一边用手小心地擦拭着伤口。然后眼眶中满是眼泪。
男孩在全校获奖，女孩摇摇头说你还差点。
女孩知道男孩喜欢她，所以她不会自己开口。
男孩知道女孩喜欢他，可是他不知怎么开口。 女孩说我们明天去海边。男孩今天就搞到了所有的地图。
男孩想喝一口开水，女孩为他捧来了整桶饮料。
女孩想要一颗星星，男孩为她搬来了整颗地球。
男孩说明天想喝咖啡。女孩今天就买好了所有的品种。
女孩说我不会跟自己不喜欢的男孩要求太多。男孩说还好你对我要求很少。
男孩说我不会让自己不喜欢的女孩坐上自己的单车。女孩笑了，还好你从没有把我当女孩看待。
女孩说如果我遇见喜欢的男孩，一定用眼神杀死他。男孩说怪不得你从没有对我放过电。
男孩说如果我遇见我喜欢的女孩一定背着她满世界地跑。女孩说还好你背我的路程只够地球半径的四分之一。
女孩说我喜欢的男孩一定是最棒的，他一定会骑着白马来找我。男孩说现在已经不允许私自贩卖马匹。
男孩说我喜欢的女孩一定比关之琳还关之琳。女孩说关之琳已被列入老人名单内了。
女孩说我喜欢的男孩一定要会在新年的十二点打电话对我说我爱你。男孩说这样的电话费会很贵，相当于一个世纪。
男孩说我喜欢的女孩一定要会在我沮丧的时候给我安慰。女孩说现在连个保姆都会给你安慰，因为你给她钱。
女孩说如果他爱我，就算我到天涯海角，他都找的找我。男孩说那你一定要找个地理知识很好的人，不然你没有找到倒把自己弄丢了。
男孩说如果她真的爱我，一定会知道我在想什么。女孩说那你一定得找个占卜师。因为她连你有没有藏私房钱都知道。
女孩说你们男孩都不浪漫。男孩说因为我们都没有钱去浪漫。
男孩说你们女孩一天到晚只知道胡思乱想。女孩说因为别的都要花钱。
女孩说我喜欢的男孩一定要比我强。男孩说可怜的我只有一次没有超过你的记录。
男孩说我喜欢的女孩一定不要太聪明，否则我会迷失方向。女孩说啊，可惜我总是和你在极端的两头。
女孩说长大以后我要当个侦探，比福尔摩斯还厉害。男孩说那你一定需要一个比华生还华生的人。
男孩说我长大后一定要当一个国家领导人，发动全宇宙最伟大的战争。女孩说世界不会接受第二个希特勒的，就像没有中国人爱日本人那样。
女孩说你的英语很poor.男孩就在暑假报了五个暑期培训班。
男孩说女孩不够淑女。女孩暑假逼着自己去学习礼仪。
女孩知道男孩很在乎她的话。所以她想总有一天男孩会跟她说的。 男孩知道女孩很在乎他的话。所以他想即使不说女孩也是会明白的。
女孩认识了比男孩高的男孩，男孩说我爱你。女孩笑着拒绝了。
男孩认识了比女孩好的女孩。女孩说我爱你。男孩笑着拒绝了。
比男孩高的男孩说你在等什么？女孩说他会说的。
比女孩好的女孩说你在等什么？男孩说她明白的。
女孩说花都谢了。男孩说它还会开的。
男孩说花又开了。女孩说它还是要谢的。
女孩说我要走了，去美国。男孩说听说外国男孩都很帅。
男孩说我会留下，因为我热爱中国。女孩说还是中国的美女最多。
女孩去机场的时候男孩送了她。女孩希望男孩留下她。可是男孩没有。
男孩留在了中国。男孩希望女孩留下，可是他没有说。 女孩哭了，说我一定找个高鼻子，蓝眼睛的。
男孩笑了，说祝你好运。
女孩走了。 男孩哭了。
女孩不停地写信。男孩不停地回信。
一年后，女孩回来了。男孩去机场接她。可是身边已多了一个女人。 男孩长大了。女孩没有。
女孩说祝你幸福。男孩说谢谢。
女孩又走了，带着眼泪。男孩身边的女人说弟弟，我们走吧！
男孩又哭了。她一定会比我幸福的。
手术台前，男孩痛苦地抓住医生说一定要让她幸福。
男孩坟前，女孩悲伤地抓住丈夫说他原本可以给我幸福的。
丈夫抱着她，轻轻地。丈夫就是最后的那个医生。
男孩从没有对女孩说过一句我爱你。因为他一直以为女孩明白。 女孩从没有对男孩说过一句我爱你。因为她一直以为男孩会说。
等男孩真正想说的时候女孩走了。 等女孩真正想说的时候男孩死了。
男孩还是一个人，女孩却是两个人。女孩一直以为男孩是两个人。男孩一直以为女孩是一个人。
女孩问男孩下辈子你要几个人生活？男孩笑着说两个人，我和我爱的人。
男孩问女孩下辈子你要几个人生活？女孩笑着说一个人，因为我爱的人从没有跟我说过他爱我。
有些人，一旦错过就不在!!有些人，一旦错过就不在!!有些人，一旦错过就不在!!
---------------Leaving on Fantasy--------------- ; {12:20 AM}
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Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Do not worry, relax and enjoy life...
What is more important to me now is to secure my career, settle my debts, and looking forward to work in New Zealand... I cannot bother much about other things anymore... everything seems so fabricated and fake to me now...
Money is the evil of root... when you are loaded, friends are everywhere... when you are tied down by financial problems, nobody will know you... tried so much not to believe but this is still reality that I have to face...
About relationship, only one word: speechless...
somehow I believe in retribution...
---------------Leaving on Fantasy--------------- ; {8:39 PM}
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Thursday, November 13, 2008
I feel upset... I am really fighting within myself mentally for the will... I work overtime everyday... stay out late almost everynight... I do not hope to go back home... because I know that once I quiet down my mind will overrun me again... For few months I have not smile even once... no matter happy or sad... my day still have to go on... My will is fighting within me... now is the economic downturn period... I have been incurring impact from it deeply... I have no one to rely on now... It now on my own...
I feel tired... I need the will to hang on... My head feel heavy...
---------------Leaving on Fantasy--------------- ; {4:37 PM}
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Tuesday, November 11, 2008
You can choose not to believe me, but I really meant my words this time...
Simply care and concern being misunderstood as having ulterior motive... I really did not expect this thing to happen... and I never expect that you will have this thinking towards me...
Really hope that you will be happy now... but please do not forget your priority in life... whatever it is...
I am now struggling thru all kind of pressure... financial, school, career... no one will understand how I feel... being lonely to fight all these things is choking and unbearable... the stress is tremendous...
Looking forward a holiday now... to beach... have not been relieve myself since July til now...
I know somehow I cannot revert the fact... I really regret...
---------------Leaving on Fantasy--------------- ; {12:16 AM}
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Friday, November 7, 2008
what is friend?
it should be someone who stay with you... regardless of happiness and sadness... listen to you...
I cannot be friend with her...
stranger or lover...
choose one bah...
I am tired... only slept for 1 hour last night...
Gonna get some sleep... sign off now...
---------------Leaving on Fantasy--------------- ; {12:22 AM}
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Wednesday, November 5, 2008
My buddy, Alvin and Angus... thanks for standing by my side for past few weeks... we went through same shit... we know that nobody can touch our heart again... Alvin told me that he will not love anyone anymore... it was so sad to get to know that how much he did for his fiancee... not being appreciated even a little...
Angus's fiancee passed away 3 years ago... He was thrown into depression for almost a year... finally he got back... brother I sure I can do it... this transition period is hard and bitter for me... but I know that I have to walk through it no matter what... because I will be stronger if I can do it...
tell me... I can do it...
I want to live better...
---------------Leaving on Fantasy--------------- ; {11:53 PM}
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Tuesday, November 4, 2008
I writing this down... because I know how long my time left... and I hope that I will not be regret... For the last 7 years, I have been trusting people too much... all the while I always put in 100% of trust and faith... either in myself or others... so naive to think that people will appreciate... again and again I being disappointed...
I know myself that I am not perfect either... I am emotionally unstable... somehow my mood swings... I am indecisive... it is because of that I made a lot mistakes in my life, some of them almost cost me my life... but it seems that god want me to stay on and learn... again and again... I escaped from death...
I remembered that in my previous blog, which I deleted due to some personal reasons... I stated: " Love is not having the person by your side, letting somone go off from you is another way of showing love." Ironically, what I said has turn in to reality... I let go somebody...
The law of equivalency. To obtain, something of equal value must be lost... Remember that always... cannot keep stop thinking of this, because this is one of the major reason that why am I still here typing this post today... vice versa quote from above, I lost something now, hopefully I will be getting something in return...
People die one day eventually... to me I have no fear... I know how much time I left with... I know that I cannot afford to waste life anymore...
I want to live...
---------------Leaving on Fantasy--------------- ; {11:09 PM}
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Sunday, November 2, 2008
everyone has their life story and experience, to me it is nice to read on others memoir... thus I have decided to write down my life... all these started from 7 years ago...
My first girlfriend was when I 17... really naive at that time... chased her for few weeks and finally got her heart... never thought that she is not as naive as I was... she was smart to know what she wants in life at the age of 17... humiliated by her mother in front of my parents... She said: " you cannot even afford to pay for your own school uniform, what makes you think that you can give my daughter a good and comfortable future?"
second girlfriend came in shortly after that... she just broke up with her ex... and my and my best friend were vying for her at the same time... but though... none of us managed to get her heart... she went back to her ex... some gals are meant to be teach a good lesson... anyway i cut my wrist for her... it was my first attempt of suicide... I did not die after that... because I never cut deep enough... but the scar followed me for life til now...
in between these... I had a few crush on several gals... I will not list down because those are not important... after that... I met her... she is the only gal I had ever love... the feeling cannot explained by words... We sticked with each other for almost four years... and broke off for few times... I swallowed pills... tried to jump from 7th floor... landed in police station and IMH... all sort of painful experience I had been went through with her... I keep telling myself to forget all these now... but I feel terrible...
she told me:" you complained that god is unfair to you, but god reward you with a gal, who stayed with you for 4 years... faithful to you, never betrayed you... what do you expect more?" seriously at that point of time I already lost her... all these words are like 1000-tons hammer... directly impact on my heart makes me lost... I wish I could be more mature... just a little bit more to treasure her...
maybe in my past life... I owe gals too much... that is why I am paying back hard this life... somehow I losing my track... perhaps my life is getting nearer to the end... I cough terribly... I want to live on... I am not afraid of anything... I just worried for my family and my best friends... all the while they have stood by me for these few months when I really down... thanks for you all... If not because of you, I will not have the will power to fight on and write down this entry...
I already planned for my life for next 5-10 years... no point plan too far... I will not be able to know what will happened after that... I want to be happy now... regardless of the source... to me I cried almost every night for last 3 months... pointless... cannot think much for now... I want to live happily even the time might not be long... we all only get to live once and we must treasure it... although it is short but make sure you never regret...
I want to live...
Please...
---------------Leaving on Fantasy--------------- ; {11:36 PM}
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